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Last night I went to Sears and bought a rolling toolbox. It's about 30 inches tall and has five sturdy drawers with ball bearing sliders so they open and close easily, and it's on nice big wheels so I can roll it around the garage. It's just the right size to put my other toolbox on top of. I got a good deal, too. It was on sale for $50 off, and while I was cleaning my desk I found a Sears gift card that turned out to have $50 on it. Then the salesman gave me a calendar with a coupon for another $5 off. So I got my $300 toolbox for $200. Yay!

I went out in the garage tonight and assembled it. Unfortunately I forgot to buy the drawer liners, so I can't fill it yet, and until I move a lot of tools into the new toolbox, the other toolbox is too heavy to lift. When they're done, though, they will be so nice! I'm looking forward to it.

The wood that will eventually be shelves is still on the porch. It doesn't make sense to hang the shelves until the walls are mudded and painted, and it doesn't make sense to mud and paint walls that still have some undrywalled sections. And I can't finish the drywall until the wiring is done. I can't install the furnace until I remove the shelves on the wall where it is to go, and I need the shelves on the unfinished wall, to move the things from these shelves onto.

I wish I could get an electrician out here. Argh! I'm tired of moving things, of having my garage in a state of flux. I want to put it all back together so I can get started on my winter motorcycle maintenance.

Time to go another round with the yellow pages and try some more electricians, see if I can find one who actually wants to work.

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Today at work I was supposed to have my annual performance review. My manager had scheduled it for 1pm. But she didn't call, and at 1:15 I called her and got no answer. She sent email a few minutes later apologizing profusely and asked me to reschedule for 2:30. At 2:40 she sent another email saying she still doesn't have time, and telling me the percentage of my raise. She said she still wants to have the phone meeting later, but I doubt we will. There's always a fire to fight, and neither of us have time for reviews. It's been 2.5 years and I have yet to have a formal review of any kind at this company.

But so what? I know all about my job performance, without a manager telling me. I'm never one of the problem employees. Occasionally I do something brilliant and get some positive attention, but mostly I'm just there, one of the solid people in the middle. If the layoff fairies come for me it will be because of some larger force at work, something beyond my manager's level, and nothing said or done in a performance review will change it. As long as I don't get laid off or quit, it'll never change.

At least they pay me enough to go out and buy big toolboxes and garage furnaces and whatnot, and it's not an unethical or dishonorable job. In this economy these are things I should be grateful for. If my job was something I enjoyed enough to do for free, they wouldn't be paying me to do it, right? I should get over my discontents, let it go, and not stress about it.

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Best of luck on both getting an electrician and reassuring yourself that your job is better than the alternatives! :-)

It's a pretty enviable job situation, certainly.