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Jan. 27th, 2004 09:02 pmEver have moments when you just wish you could walk away from it all? Leave behind your job, your home, your friends and their stupid feuds, your relationships, your family, etc? Move to someplace nice and start over with new people around you who don't hassle you about things that are in the past and can't be changed?
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Date: 2004-01-28 02:36 am (UTC)Yes. Sure. Somewhere warm. Melbourne, Marsailles, Moorea. Graham said, "my gosh, you've really put down roots here!" when I was talking about some library board meeting I go to, and I didn't like that, I haven't really put down roots, just because I have a bajillion things going on here.
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Date: 2004-01-28 02:53 am (UTC)Exposure to actual sunshine works wonders on that sort of mood.
Take it from someone who wishes he didn't have to walk away from it all: It's more stressful than you'd imagine in a thousand wistful moments.
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Date: 2004-01-28 04:18 am (UTC)Myself I have too much infrastructure (Books) to move easily.
Could do your job via a cell phone and lap top?
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Date: 2004-01-28 04:48 am (UTC)Ever have moments?
Date: 2004-01-28 05:32 pm (UTC)Uhm ... almost always? Weekly, if not daily. I'd move to Vancouver or Alaska or maybe Eugene, Oregon. In winter, I also consider the middle of the US desert - Arizona, Nevada, etc.
In the past, I've moved every 3-4 years, always leaving friends behind. I sometimes intend to keep in touch, but I never do. This is the longest I've been in one spot since my 5.5 year stint in middle/high school. For the first time ever, I don't want to leave my friends.
But I'm still itching for change. Starting over is so much fun.
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Date: 2004-01-28 09:43 pm (UTC)The problem is that the job is on my list of things to walk away from.
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Date: 2004-01-28 09:53 pm (UTC)But I don't really recommend it. Part of what I found out was that the core issue - my own dissatisfaction with my life - came along with me. I was still *me* wherever I went, and until I changed some beliefs and expectations, well, the more things changed, the more they stayed the same.
These days, when I get thinking thoughts like that, I do two things: I write down a list of everything that is *good* about my life (and a requirement is that I come up with 25 distinct things); and then I play a fantasy game of "What Would I Do If I Won $X Million?" Then I compare to see if any of the things on the second list could actually happen *now*, and try to make them happen. Example: Quite a while ago, I realized that if I didn't have other pressures, I would read more books, and write more - even if only in a journal or email. I realized I could make time for that, and so I did, and my Life Satisfaction went up.
I don't know what else to tell you, except Hang In There.
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Date: 2004-01-28 09:55 pm (UTC)Maybe just looking might make you feel better.
Its hard to be up this time of year believe me I know.
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Date: 2004-01-29 01:29 am (UTC)I love you, and so some other people I can think of, if that's any help. If not, I have a bunch of used glass bottles that would make a very satisfying *smash* if hurled at high velocity into a trash can/recycle bin. :)